To help myself get out of the pit

I'm done hoping for you to come back.
I'm done wishing for miracles to happen.
I'm done with every pain you'd put upon me.

Falling in love isn't supposed to be this hurtful.

Falling in love's supposed to make everything in your life beautiful.
It's supposed to give hope and make all things better even at your worst.
You'd find yourself smiling for no reason, and when you think of him, knowing him turns out to be the most wonderful thing that's ever happened.

Falling in love's not supposed to affect your mood, your health, your mind.
You don't go crazy, it doesn't do any harm psychologically or mentally, and it doesn't ruin any other relationships and friendships out there.
It's not supposed to have anyone else involved, especially the people around.
It affected too much.
And not only my health, my mind, my feelings.
It affected people around me. That crossed the line.

It sucks that I still love you. But I'm moving on.

I know that if you ever do come back one day, you'd fight for me even if I'd fallen out of love.
But till then, I bet on my whole life that you'd never come back.
You're never doing the U-turn.
A hundred thousand bucks says I'm wrong.
*shrugs*

My definition of falling in love is when I feel the sparks and fireworks around.
Seeing you, it makes me nauseous. Too much butterflies crashing into each other in my stomach I guess.

Haha, the realization that I had completely lost myself in that relationship.
That wasn't me. The forever clinging on to her boyfriend? That's not me.
And he'll never see the real me.


 

Because there's always music ♥

.. Soothing music that lets you close your eyes and drown into lalaland.