I find myself very, uh, that.

(Thanks for calling me)
Gak, I can really sink into a black hole and find it hard to climb out when I'm really feeling sad. Bully only.
But now, I'm finding every single little thing very funny. And I hope that it'll always stay this way. Cheers.
Tumblr's been a big help to light up the dark days, in motivating, in being strong.


"Best friends are those who know your deepest, darkest secrets and have found your major flaws but love you anyway."

-- Quote found in Sunway Pyramid and agreeing every single bit of it.
I'm really glad and thankful to have the girls around with me to cheer me up, together with that specific guy who will never let me down.
Yes, you know who you are.

There's actually still tears trying to be held back when you are to be mentioned. Haha. But because of this, I learnt not to rush into any new relationship, because the result of the new one just might end up the same previous way in a suffering matter. Well, Mich made me realize how strong and relaxed I can actually be. But one thing is that I'll always and forever will be thanking my friends who were and are still there for me when I needed company the most. Xi, Beh, Pra, Karen, Shally, Ling, Mel, Ee, Mich, Gene, KJ and especially Chan, Ben and Uren. Life is a bitch, but we still gotta hang on. Sometimes it's just hard to control the challenges given, but one thing's for sure is that one can either go through it smiling, or simply frowning. What happened in those 14 months will stay in those 14 months. Memories will not be forgotten but will be left as a learning state. The scar in the heart will never be healed, but it will forever remind me of what, when, how, why, and at-least-I-learnt. I don't care about the promises that you make, because they were meant to be broken in the first place. The past may come and haunt me, but for now, I'll try to control it if possible. I want my love story to be a great one to be told in the future. One day, I'll be saying I've moved on. Some day, I'll look back to this day and think how crazy I've been. Friends and family are happy for me now, and so am I to myself. =p

SPM and STPM are almost over!!

So can't wait to find the loved ones to go and yumcha when they are stress free!
Cilaka Christopher never came out since September. And kinda feeling guilty not finding Wen Yi or Song Yee. Not to mention ML. And, and, and we saw Pra slumber only walking on the roadside the other day. Thanks to me and my special, famous blue car, yes, he saw us at 80km/hour and WAVED back! Yeng!

Anyway, December started out not bad. Went on a huge shopping spreeeeeeeeeee with someone to hold EVERYTHING =p new shoes ♥! Went high and spammed KJ's wall like nobody's business. I think I forgot how I could be when I'm not thinking about, nah. And after weeks of being a bookworm for story books and novels, it's kinda getting boring again =.=
OMGeeee la! Where's the ohm!

I can't wait for sem to reopen.
English Literature on the first day of college next year. Yay! It can't be that bad except the fact that I'm gonna be alone there.
Saw the all the money-sucking massage chairs at Block A. Would wanna see where they placed them in the library and taking up all the space.
75 minutes to get to UCSI on a Monday 8.30am morning! You are so kidding me!
Nah, I just wanna do something instead of slacking at home feeling bored 24/7. Wanna go out! And yet at the same time wanna be a guai lui and stay at home ;)
Why are they no nice movies out there now!
Not to mention sleeping at 4.30am is so hahahahahahah cool and not cool! Feel like such an owl.
Subtract the headache part at night and in the morning la.

Hmmmmm out of stuff. My mind is a weird place to be in, because I am this random girl who blogs about absolutely uninteresting stuff.
Memories for self in the future! Cheers!

She smiles

I used to find myself smiling at the things that remind me of you.
Now, the smile has turned into emotionless stares.
Absolutely neutral because I disallow my thoughts to roam into a danger zone which in the end might have my mind stab my own heart.
But thanks to you, I learnt to take notice of other things.
I now smile at other stuff.
♥

When these awesome people I call my friends make up my day

People do crazy thing when they're in love.
Well, people do CRAZIER and stupid stuff when they get hurt, say get a really hurtful heartbreak.
That's how harassment, revealing dark secrets, threats and murders happen.
That's why I couldn't hang on to the if-you-love-him-then-let-him-go concept.
That's why I did forceful stuff and said hurtful things without thinking of the consequences.
People just go crazy and stupid, irrationally when they can't accept what's going on.
I'll prove I'm not one of them,
because third time's a charm.

I lost my black pen in Kindergarten, and I found it in Christopher's mouth

Christopher Laurence, people, is this 6-year-old child with autism. He's as thin as a stick and weights only 25kg. He doesn't eat and would need to be watched closely or he'll accidentally drop his food on the floor. The only time he drinks is when he sees his mum appoaching after school hours. He does nothing in school and well, basically keeps singing the same phrase of a song the entire morning. I think he's Sabah/Sawarak mixed. He roams around like nobody's business and loves curling in the curtains. If he can't reach the curtains, he'll stand on chairs or even the table. Well, give him anything, say a duster or ruler, and it'll be covered with saliva. Either that or it'll be in his shirt.

He doesn't talk much, yet yells and shouts in a tone.
During the Graduation Ceremony last Saturday, amazingly, he said
"Daddy, Mummy, I love you. I love dancing Kungfu Panda. THANK YOU."
His mum was in tears.
Although Chris' sentences were unclear, soft and he said it really slow, it touched me a lot.
***Kungfu Panda is a dance for the Kindergarten's concert.

Christopher is heading to a special primary school next year. He's actually a smart kid. All the best.

I hate how all my anger turns into tears without the 'anger' word in less than 2 minutes.