Don't break my heart

The gate was opened and they ran out like usual when no one is strict in controlling them. They targetted the neighbour's cat and they ran like there was nothing else better than freedom. Of course. They're just happy-go-lucky dogs that loves cats.
Anyway, the mother and sister ran home under command, and it was left the blacky that was suddenly out of sight. And because of that, by 8 in the morning today, I had gone through a whole lot of exercise trying to find her.

I looked under each cars that was in the neighbourhood street;
I looked around the muddy soil near the pond, in fear that she might fall into it wouldn't know how to swim;
I walked to and fro my house and the last house on the street;
Calling her name, which I had never done before when a dog goes mising, I remember that she's finally learnt of her name at 22 months of age.

And there she was, Sesame walking slumberly on the main road!!! Well that was how I saw the small little black dog from afar. I'd recognize her messy fur anywhere x)
Come on, I just woke up like 15 minutes ago. I havent even been in the bathroom yet! And she had me run towards her. I guess she didn't see me, because when I approached the roadside, she was at a distance, almost getting ready to jump into another car, AGAIN!
At a near distance, Sesame was actually trembling. She heard my call and she was shaking and walking slowly towards me in the MIDDLE OF THE ROAD, with a black Myvi behind her followed by quite a traffic behind her.
She was still a little shakened by the whole 'I'm standing in the middle of the road and I can get killed or kidnapped anytime' when being carried on the way home, but punishment is punishment, she's in her cage now.

If Sesame goes missing, Miko would change as well. Thought they fight and bully each other, they're nothing when seperated, and they're never seperated.
Tried it once, and the both of the puppies each ended up emo'ing, sitting guard at the gate most of the time, sticking to owners more than ever, losing all courage and suddenly becoming very timid, and suddenly losing all energy to move about.
It's also her mother's birthday tomorrow. Turning 6, Yuki wouldn't want Sesame to be lost as a gift.
Don't go breaking her heart, their hearts. Don't break mine.

"Let's start over" :)

Two years and two months. Easier said than done.

Those 30 minutes changed everything. And when we said our Goodbye's, it felt like one of us was going overseas. It felt like we weren't gonna see each other anymore for 2 years, when in reality we're gonna bump in college.
Whatever it is, all those were sweet talk, honest sweet talk, and I believe every sentence that was said.
Doubts? None at all.
Two years later this time, I see myself finishing all subjects and internships, in my last month of pet grooming course, and waiting for July for UCSI's Convocation, as well as a beautiful miracle to happen.

In the meantime, basketball, anyone?

Things that make me laugh and cry

 

Because Blogspot and Twitter are more less known

"When you're up in life, your friends get to know who you are. When you're down in life, you get to know who your friends are." --@dearjohnfilm

Have yet watch the film Dear John, but I love what they tweet.
Lovely, meaningful, beautiful ♥

Soooooo, how should I start after so long?
Let's start with a few months ago, where I was this girl suffering from a break up.
Sadly speaking, I fell into my own trap and my biggest enemy was my mind.
I would say I had some mild/major problems going on that time.
No matter how much I tried, no matter how much I thought about the future, my loved ones and the bright sunlight I'm blessed with, I never felt happy.
I was addicted to being sad all the time.
And I felt that the whole world had turned against me that there was no point in hearing the alarm clock ring in the morning anymore.

I turned to my family first, and left them.
I then turned to my friends, and I hid from them.
Later on, I turned to another batch of 'friends'.
Yes, 'friends', who made me feel so alive for a short while and stabbed me harder with more pain to suffer half way through.
So it was like putting salt onto a wound. Double that.
I wanted to scream so badly I was going mad.
I took up the courage and went to see a counsellor in college.
When I tried to avoid going to sessions later on, she still helped guided me through this rough path.
Better, weeks or perhaps months later, I found out that my true friends never gave up on me. Same goes to my family who are still giving 100% support to me.
I haven't hug my mum in ages, and it felt great.

I dare to speak out right now, because I guess finally after all this while, I finally have the strength to stand up and face stuff.
I'm still madly, deeply in love, I can't deny that.
But what I can deny is that I'm not going emo 6 days a week now.
I'm not crying 20 hours a day and I'm not spamming calls on people and using RM200-300 per month.
Or course I still feel sad at the specific reason from time to time, but I'm really glad that we're still friends.




Just, to R and E, I was fragile back then. Maybe you never had the intention, but knowing that all your concerns were fake, and all sweet talk and hugs were lies and more lies, I'm more cautious with people like you. I'll still pick up your calls and hang out with you guys if invited, but I'll never look at you the same way I did before. My biggest mistake was trusting the 3 of you and blindly trusting you all with secrets. I can only hope they stay where they were first spilled.

If all else fails, hug your dog

Yuki gave birth to 4 adorable puppies 2 years ago.
We gave Mozzy and Cotton June away when they were 2-3 months old to close friends.
Their names have since changed to Bowie and Muffin.

Anyway, Bowie's family went on a trip for the weekends and she's has been living with us for 3 days. Mozzy, uhmm, Bowie has became a very in dependant dog that she's forgotten all about her mother and sisters. Well, same went for the mother and sisters towards her. Yuki, Sesame and Miko don't mix with her and vice versa. Instead, Bowie sticks to humans only.

Bowie today.And Bowie at 6 weeks.:)

Fastest birthday suprise ever

The time was around 6.50pm when the 4 of us reached our destination. We brought the present and donuts out and right before we lit the candles and sung the song, the very blur Kar Chun, who apparently lied saying he was still in Kampar who was actually hiding in the back seat in the very small little Myvi, appeared. It was then was Shally stunned big time as we celebrated her birthday a day earlier right in the middle of the parking area at her apartment. It was fast because right after that, the 3 of us jimui's left, leaving behind the 2 to have some time alone :p

Shally's one of the strongest person I know. She goes through difficult stuff and all almost everyday, but she still manages to get through and on with life. I remember very clearly that she once said "There's no point in complaining, holding grudes or crying. The problem doesn't go away. We're grown up now and we need to deal with them." Then again, I love to see her smile. And I'll always be hoping that she'll be happy 24/7 :)

Anyway, Form 3 changed all. By agak agak knowing who Shally was, we ended up sitting together, exchanged a few chats and laughs and now are heading towards friends forever.
Love you, girl. Happy 20th Birthday on the 20th :)

Yesterday we were just children, dreaming dreams with happy endings

Because it's too complicated with people.
Hence, my future's gonna be dealing with dogs.
I don't care what others would think of me then.
And no one's gonna stop me from achieving that dream.
It's the only dream I've got.