Because every hello ends with a goodbye

"The two hardest things to say in life are hello for the first time and goodbye for the last."
Especially after you've build some kind of bond.

Not sure how everyone started to get so crazy and comfortable with one another, but I think it's the long working hours and how we all worked together as a team, whereby everyone is so sporting and friendly and are willing to help out one another and take jokes all at the same time.

It's only been my 8th shift, where I didn't think I could mix with them that well at the beginning.
With other important stuff in life, I only can manage to give out 2 or 3 days a week to the lab, in where my last shift would be in December.
But some how, deep down, seeing how epic these geeks are getting each and every day, I'm gonna miss them when 2014 comes.

Being someone who doesn't fancy change in her life, I still wouldn't change any of these.
I would still do this all over again.
I would still go for the interview, have those awkward first 3 shifts, slowly build a bond with the rest, do a countdown and prepare to say goodbye when the year ends.

It's kinda just like cell multiplication.

Life is a building experience, with everything you gain that leads to a better future.
Say for example, if you wanna be the boss, you can't forever stay in the shadows just because it's a comfort zone?
How about getting out of there, screw up the new first week of work, and suddenly be the top of the top?

/thankful to be given this working experience and meeting these geeks/

Thank You.

Now, about the piano exam and no one replying my internship applications...

Take the lead again

A part time job was what I wanted to pass the time while earning some cash on this sem break, but when it's screwing up my meal time and curfew and sleeping hours, the mind gets a bit cacat and goes emotional, and I'm just left here thinking, what have I been doing not spending time with the dogs and the family?

It's been two weeks since I started part-time at the lab in OUG, and being one of the geeks, it has been fun. I mean, I'm meeting all these old and new geeks. I'm learning a lot; gaining lots of experiences; and holding back the urge to clean tables when I went back on my off day the other day. And if I were to go into the F&B industry one day, this would be a really nice touch-up to the resume.

But I guess everything comes with a price. The working hours are 4-11pm (where most of the time, we'd actually stay until 12am or so). It's nothing to do with any of the factors given from the lab; it's just me not being able to be immuned to what's given. I got cranky a lot because I have yet adjust to this new schedule.

And because of that, all the bad things come together. Something like, you attract more negative energy and will so happen to suddenly face all negative stuff when you're in a negative state of mind, then everything starts getting onto your nerves and when you can't handle them, you just break down?

Explains why I couldn't see the Takeover could be a huge turning point. Explains why the picture of people judging me came back to the thoughts at night. Explains why I'm expecting so so much from others when I shouldn't. Explains why I'm being so hard on myself.

How does the saying go? Something about, you can't have life suit you all the time, and that you need to suit yourself with life instead? Mehh, sem break has totally made my brain rot with all that laziness.

I guess I can still turn things around. To takeover, right? And it all starts with a strong immune system, healthy lifestyle and a healthy mindset? Crossing out the laziness, I think I can do this. But with Him, I know I can.

Sem break motto!

Okay, maybe not too brave a thing.

Though it was fun to walk into Forever 21 after they announced "shop is closing in 10 minutes", and grab some absolute bargains, try them on and then walk to the counter and see the I-wanna-go-home face on the cashiers the other day (I wasn't the only or the last customer!), which the same night itself, a crazy thought had us head towards the SmartTag lane and hoped the Touch n Go machine works after seeing super long queues at the toll (it didn't work and we had to reverse, with a car behind us honking like mad).

Also explains people asking "you sure you're not pushing too far?" after a jog and badminton on Tuesday, continued by badminton, squash, gym, more squash, more gym on Wednesday.

Nope. I'm kinda having fun, with half of the time complaining I'm dead bored at home, but yeah, I'm having fun (and always looking forward the weekends when I get to see all those crazy people!)

2 months of sem break down. 2 more months to go. Yay!

Our turn

I don't know anything about mental illness in its most psychological or medical term.
But what I do know is that people can be given second chances to heal from any form of mistake from the past, as long as they repent in it.
Everyone deserves the best in life.
What happens next is how you grab hold onto your life.


All your life you've been waiting. Learning. Getting ready for that one day when the ball would be passed to your court, and it'd be up to you to make the game-changing difference. All your life you've told yourself, "soon". Not today, "soon". Not tomorrow, "soon".

To-morrow, to-morrow, and to-morrow. Life is far too short to be spent waiting. For that one event. For that one chance. The rest of your life begins today. It begins now. Now is the moment you've been preparing for. It's time to step out into the arena. Time to show them what you've got.

The world is watching. Ready or not – it's our turn now.

"You just want it just because you can't have it."

For the past three years, there were always obligations that stopped me from applying for a part-time job with BBW. Every year, I look up the calender, hoping their time will be adjustable to my schedule. This year was no different, and the good news this year, it's during sem break and I had no compulsory obligations. I was free for those 18 days. Or was I?

"Is working at BBW worth giving up 18 days of freedom? Earning thousands in 18 days, is that what you really want? Okay. So pretend that you've gotten the job and are working day one on this 9am-9pm job, what happens next? What happens tomorrow on what you think you want?"

I would ask myself, what am I doing here?

I wanted to work there so bad, I forgot why I wanted what I wanted.

The same happened to wanting to go for the Work and Travel USA programme for the past year.
What about wanting a boyfriend all those years, and so desperately wanted to get back together with the ex last year?

Turns out working at BBW isn't something I really want.
I just wanted to work there because I never had the opportunity to when I really wanted to be there three years ago.

So who wants to raid MIECC this year with me and maintain this customer status we so proudly own?
Books range as low as RM8 :p

Shake planets

So he walked into the room and took my breathe away. So not cool.

Anyway, the past few weeks had it's ups and downs (again) but they all turned out okay in the end. As time passes with these challenges to the mindset and physical surroundings, I learn a little more things about myself, as well as the people around me. So who says bad things are just bad?

Cameron trip on 16th-18th this month with 97 leaders turned out to be the greatest turning point. Lots to improve, lots to learn though. And the shaking planet title? I'll be attending my very first concert tomorrow. Can't wait!

The greatest gift you can give to someone is your time

It was Victor's 22nd birthday on Monday where he cleared out the entire day (even skipped class!) so that his friends could bring him out. Asked him what he wanted on his special day, he answered "Nothing much. Hoping my friends to be creative." The fella super laidback only. Then with Jo's enthusiasm in having sleepovers, that was what we exactly did at my place. And at 11pm on Sunday night, that began the start of one of the best 24 hours spent together.

When the clock struck 12, a huge chocolate cake presented itself and the candles were blown. It was only until 3am where we hogged and slept like logs in the living room. I guess it was a funny scene for my dad to come home hours later to find Jo and Sam sleeping in the downstairs guest room, Victor and KJ sleeping on the floor, and Laureen and myself taking up the two couches.

We spent Monday playing Chapter 3 of Mice and Mystics and a game of Monopoly before heading off to TGIF in Midvally for a long dinner. Though it didn't seem much to do, time flew by. It was a fun experience especially being able to spend time together talking, laughing, staying up late, talking some more, laughing some more and waking people up with pink fluffy unicorns dancing on rainbows. God only knows how strong the bond was strengthened.

Victor had a great time in the end (by seeing how he spammed Facebook, Twitter and text messages) and it was a really satisfying feeling felt that he felt happy and valued and loved on this special day. It was an "awwww", all warm and fuzzy moment to know he appreciated everything that was done to place him in spotlight.

Though I've only personally known him less than a year, cheers to more birthdays to come and for this friendship's existence. Looking forward to more years to come, and quoting Victor, stoked to see what's gonna happen to the Saujana gang in the future.